My Love Story

Love is something I was very skeptic about. I did not believe someone could fall in love with a girl/boy just like that.. For me all this was just bullshit as all I believed in was infatuation. I had had numerous infatuations/crushes but nothing you can call love. But then something inexplicable happened & my views about love changed forever.

I met her just after coming to Mumbai. Initially nothing happened. Everything was normal. I continued with my job. As the fate would have it our paths started crossing more often. She is quite beautiful but it wasn't her beauty which attracted me, it was her nature. She is so serene and quite that she reminded me of myself some years ago. Her shyness, her serenity, the way she talked and her sweet nature had an intoxicating effect on me. She is the girl, I thought with whom I can spend my whole life.

I was about to confess my love, but before that I decided to do a SWOT (Strength, Weakness, Opportunity, Threats) analysis. The biggest threat to our future relationship from my side was it had no future. The reason being my family is completely against an inter caste marriage. And no matter how much I loved her, it would still be much less than how much I love my family. The other problem was I was not sure about her feelings towards me (which I later got to know through a common friend, but thats a different story). I did not have the courage to face rejection, but that was not why I did not propose. I could have somehow faced the rejection, but what if she accepted me? I knew it had no future and I had to tell this to her one day about it. I did not want to face her on that day. I did not want to hurt her even in my dreams. So I decided to keep my love to myself. I still love her and I'll always love her but she should never get to know this. I think she deserves someone better than me.

To conclude, I would like to quote Shahrukh from the movie Mohabbatein, "Agar tum kisi se pyar karte ho to zaroori nahi ki woh bhi tumse pyar kare".